I will allow myself to express my feelings.
I will let the words come from my heart.
I will allow myself to cry when it hurts.
I will forgive myself when I feel so weak and hopeless.
I will believe with my whole heart that one day this will all be over.
I won’t put on a smile when my spirit feels crushed.
I will stay strong when I want to break down.
I won’t feel ashamed because I am heartbroken.
I won’t apologize for loving my niece more than life itself.
I won’t ever give up the fight or trying to make it right.
I will trust in God that He will make our family once again whole.
I won’t be so hard on myself when I feel overwhelmed.
I won’t rest until every detail is told.
I will wait for my niece, no matter how long it takes.
I will allow myself to live while I wait, owing that to those around me.
I will pray night and day, silently and out loud, that our dream will come true.
I won’t take my hurt and frustration out on those that love me and are supporting me through this.
I will make a conscious effort to survive this.
I will always be her auntie, no matter who tries to take that away.