Archive | July 27, 2015

My Niece, My Love …. Come Home, Your Family is Waiting ….

Dearest Babygirl….

I’m just about finished up with summer semester and had the time of my life … Can’t wait for fall !

I went to Santa Cruz and had an incredible 4th of July, the fireworks were going off for days leading up to the campout on the beach.

This weekend a concert, then driving right up to Reno for Hot August Nights ( something I went to for fifteen years in a row until I last saw the love of my life alive there, I haven’t been back since.) I’m finally going again and I’m anxious for the car show, the food and music, and running into friends I haven’t seen in way too long.

I’ve been slowly beginning to live again. I am finding a way to balance waiting in joy, limiting the grief-stricken state I’ve been trapped in for so long. I’m feeling free, my spirit is full of love and it feels like I’m floating. I’m being appreciated, I’m being loved, I’m being understood, I’ve taken time to ‘be still.’

I feel blessed, excited for the future. I’m embracing every opportunity of love and laughter. I started writing poetry again. I’ve escaped in my photography, I’m writing all sorts of non-fiction again… I’m finding myself … The best ‘me’ I’ve ever been. You can see it all over me, you can feel it when I’m in the room… People drawn to me are finally being allowed a quarter-of-an-inch passed my electrified fence.

My love, I want you to know… I love you more with each passing day. I can’t get you off my mind. I wish and dream for us, I pray, I wait in love for you. I become more calm the more I trust in the Lord. I put this all in God’s hands many, many years ago, and I believe in Him to fix all this mess. I’m living for you Babygirl, being everything I can be, helping anyone I can, being my best… Everything I do, is for you or because of you, and it’s all worth it. If you only knew how much you continue to captivate our hearts …. Come home, sweet love….