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Reminiscing.

I miss the me I used to be, carefree, and happy,  and weightlessly free.

Before light turned to darkness,  and I lost my way, demanding justice,  and hoping they pay. 

They don’t care what they took, the filth which they are, but God is still watching,  it’s not over by far.

May they relish the victory, they think it’s so sweet, their lies will crash down , and their judgment they’ll meet….

 

…. Because I Love You ….

 

 

I daydream about our life together, because I love you.

I stay stuck on hope, because I love you.

I cling to dreams, because I love you.

I pray for you with trembling hands and tears falling down my face, because I love you.

I keep you with me always, because I love you.

You’ve changed me through-and-through, all because I love you ….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tonight, Love Wins. 

Tonight,  for the first time in about ten or eleven years, my mother finds all of her children under one roof. 

Thank you, Heavenly Father, for not forgetting about us ….

No, I Don’t Forgive Them. Don’t Even Ask Me To. 

This hurts so bad, I can’t  sleep. 

My mind has been racing all day.

My heart feels heavy , and unforgiving. 

It’s a constant feeling of how-do-I-get-through-this. 

I want this over, and I want this right. 

I’ve never felt so helpless, or anxious. 

I close my eyes and just think … stop….stop…stop…. I don’t want it like this. 

I want to fix it, and can’t, and that makes it hard to even breathe. 

I can’t even sleep in the quiet, because it’s just too loud.