When trapped, water finds a way, and makes a new path …..
I daydream about our life together, because I love you.
I stay stuck on hope, because I love you.
I cling to dreams, because I love you.
I pray for you with trembling hands and tears falling down my face, because I love you.
I keep you with me always, because I love you.
You’ve changed me through-and-through, all because I love you ….
Tonight, for the first time in about ten or eleven years, my mother finds all of her children under one roof.
Thank you, Heavenly Father, for not forgetting about us ….
This hurts so bad, I can’t sleep.
My mind has been racing all day.
My heart feels heavy , and unforgiving.
It’s a constant feeling of how-do-I-get-through-this.
I want this over, and I want this right.
I’ve never felt so helpless, or anxious.
I close my eyes and just think … stop….stop…stop…. I don’t want it like this.
I want to fix it, and can’t, and that makes it hard to even breathe.
I can’t even sleep in the quiet, because it’s just too loud.
When grief gets a grip on you, it doesn’t let go.
It crushes you.
All you can do, is beg God to make it go away.
If you want to truly know me, read what I write.
Paper is the only thing I trust enough to pour the truth on ….
You keep it together; incessantly resisting giving a beat down.
You don’t give up; even when colors all fade to black.
You never stop dreaming; even when nightmares shake you awake.
You keep going; pushing through the tears.
You figure it out; contemplating impossible answers.
You don’t buy or sell the lies; you protect the truth with your very life.
You go all in; mastering the fine art of balance between pleasure and pain.
You don’t back down, you truck whatever is in your way.
You don’t apologize for standing firm; right is right…. now, or a million years from now.
You don’t let fear replace your fun; that rush is rare…. get it good.
You don’t let the circumstance take you from yourself; you immerse your entire being into ride-or-die love.
Most importantly…. you don’t become a fallen angel; you hold on to your innocence.